There she is.

It’s when I trust my inner voice and higher self that I feel successful. Although my Taurean Moon and Venus constantly feed my desire, truly success for me has little to do with the stuff. When she and I are in perfect alignment and grooving along the course of the higher calling, I’m good.

As I write this, it has been a little over two years since I felt called to vulnerably share my life experiences. While this is in the works, I continue to cowardly fulfill my role rather than step into it with power and faith. Now, all of this may sound extra metaphorical and spiritual to you, but know that awareness is the first step. SHE IS extra metaphorical, spiritual, and extremely deep rooted in the subconscious, so it’s just simply not for everyone. I intend to feel, think, and move with depth, so when I fall short, it hits a bit harder.

To be vulnerable is a tough calling as I sit in the idea of what that even means. It means I have to trust the risk and risk the trust. It’s a balance that can be tough to find when you’ve just begun to find yourself and yourself can’t even show you the way. I’ve realized that all I really have to do is trust myself, but that got me thinking…why don’t I trust myself? For years then, I have limited myself at the risk of trusting ME, not just others. In an effort to control the narrative and outcome, I’ve failed to let go of control and freely explore the possibilities.

Like many of us, in childhood I learned that pain is chosen. Hopefully since we got the depth of my intention out of the way, you understand that I refer to the significance of physical, emotional, psychological, and spiritual pain. It wasn’t until my later years that I realized how learning impacts the conscious and subconscious space, hence my passion.

Now, understanding that choosing pain is an indicator of resiliency, I’m done being afraid. Trusting my inner voice and being vulnerable is the superpower that I choose to don. The fear and apprehension of the consequences are not greater than my wisdom and confidence. There is always a possibility of the big bad world wide web, but the champion martyr in me says do it anyway so that others who desire success within can feel that it begins right where they are. The center of the light we search for on the outside is not misplaced or irrecoverable, but instead buried within.